Worst Roller Coaster Ride Ever

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*Editorial note. I started writing this a month ago and the title was a little different, but then I had two opportunities go deep into the interview process and a month-long freelancing gig. Well, the opportunities fell through and the freelancing gig ended. 

Seven months ago I was called into a conference room and told that I no longer had a job.

It’s not the first time this had happened to me, layoffs unfortunately happen, but it was slightly unexpected. Two weeks prior I was covering the NHL All-Star Game in Los Angeles. In early January I was in Tampa for the National Championship. In December I was focused on SI’s Sportsperson of the Year event. A month before that I was interviewing for a promotion at work. A lot can change in three months, huh?  Anyway, back to that day in February, I had that terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach when my boss sent me a Slack message with no context asking me to come to a random conference room.

What happened next was like listening to the Peanuts teacher. I’m pretty sure I heard things like, “you’ve done a great job here,” and “thank you for your hard work and dedication”  What my now ex-boss was saying to me didn’t matter, I didn’t have a job anymore. Like any job, working at Sports Illustrated had its ups and downs, but I loved that I had the opportunity to work for a revered sports publication. A publication that I had been reading for as long as I could remember. I helped build their social presence with an ever-changing team. However, all of that was gone now. Like too many people, I became a modern day media statistic.

One thing I heard continuously after sharing my news was, “You won’t be out of a job long! Someone will snatch you up right away.”  Well, as I mentioned at the beginning of this, we recently hit the seven month mark. Seven months might not seem like a long time to most, but it really is. I miss going to work. I miss having a work family. I miss planning for events and content. I miss working with writers, editors, producers, athletes, etc.

I even miss meetings. WHAT?!

The past seven months have been an emotional roller coaster. I try to keep myself as busy as possible so I don’t find myself sitting on my couch feeling sorry for myself (Spoiler: It happens more often than I’d like to admit). It’s really difficult when you lose your job and know you did nothing wrong. Honestly, it sucks. But as I’ve said, I’ve kept myself busy. When I’m not applying for jobs, I try to get out of my apartment as much as possible. I’ll take a stroll around Central Park. Explore the city. See family. Spend time with friends. I take on freelance work whenever possible.

The hardest part has been the job application and interview process. It’s an emotionally draining job. One you don’t get paid for. You spend hours a day filling out online applications, tailoring your cover letters to what you think you the hiring manager wants to read and then you wait. You reach out to people in the industry who might know someone where you applied, but mostly you wait. You jump with anticipation when your phone rings with an unfamiliar number or an email drops into the primary tab in Gmail. Sometimes that email is only to tell you that the job you know you’re perfect for has been filled and you never even got a phone interview.

Then you finally receive an email that someone wants to set up a time for an in-person interview. YES! Do I be funny? Witty? Serious? What should I wear? Can I get away with a dress or should I wear a suit? How much time should I factor in for travel? Is the subway running without crazy delays? What did the interviewer think of me? Did they like me? Did I say all the right things or did they think I sounded like an idiot? You second guess every moment of the interview.  You know you have too.

Next up, the thank you email where you try to remember what you said to each person you met with to give the email a touch of a personal feel. You wait again.  Occasionally there’s more interviews, GREAT! Shampoo, rinse, repeat. Going deep into the interview process is when you start to get excited. You begin to imagine yourself working for this company. You plan how you’re going to get back on your feet. You begin to look at apartments if the job is in another state. You start thinking about the witty way you’ll tell social media that you’re finally gainfully employed again and how excited you are for the opportunity! Until you find out early one morning, or months later, or over a weekend that they’ve decided you’re not the right person for a job. That they’ve found someone who checks all their boxes. That they’ve decided to move in another direction. Sometimes you never hear back at all. This, my friends, is the most crushing part. The tears flow. You begin to question the whole process and ask when it’ll be your turn. Your friends and family say; “Well, it clearly wasn’t meant to be, and the perfect opportunity is right around the corner.”  This is what I’ve told myself numerous times since February.

Then you start all over again.

It’s a roller coaster, but we’re not at Six Flags, and I want off this ride.

It’s been seven months. I’m exhausted. All I want right now is to work somewhere where I am happy, where my work is appreciated, and where I’m paid enough to not have to freelance on the side. I don’t think I’m asking for much.

Now… who wants to #HireStef?

 

 

 

 

 

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5 Responses to Worst Roller Coaster Ride Ever

  1. Frank Y says:

    I’m sure you are tired of hearing this but hang in there. Nothing but respect for someone who is making a career in the sports media world today. Everything has been turned on it’s head and too many talent people are out of work in favor of people who simply make noise.

    Keep at it and know that there are still people out there who appreciate strong writing and story telling instead of the sports yelling/”debate” nonsense that current dominate the industry.

  2. stripes914 says:

    I’m so sorry. I truly wish i can help. I cant imagine how tough its been for you, waiting for an opportunity since February. I wish i knew someone in your field, but i don’t. I can keep my eyes open and see if i hear of something similiar to sports/event planning. I just want you to know that i read your post and really wish i could help.

    Vic (Juddah Kie)

  3. I’m on it. Spreading the word as far and wide as I can! Hang in there, Stef!

  4. jmitchem says:

    Congratulations on using your skill to help overcome your burden. Just this week I wrote on social media about how lovely it must be to hold a routine job where you go into an office every day and see the same people and do the same kind of work and get a regular paycheck. You see, I’m an entrepreneur (writer) and it’s a bit of a rollercoaster too. Everything is BizDev. Even when you’re working on a project you have to keep hustling for the next one. In my post I talked about how great it must be to have a normal job with a normal life. Only what I realized, especially after reading this, is that we are all in the same boat. Even when we think someone else has it made, we’re all just out there doing our best in a world that is in constant flux. A world we have no control over. Keep the faith, I’ve found that baby steps in the direction of your dreams are the most important steps you can take every day.

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