I’m in a funk. I hate this feeling. It is a feeling of emptiness, feeling of being unfulfilled and knowing something is missing.
I know some of it has to do with my professional life, I’ve been working for the same company now for almost three years with no hope of advancement in a small department. I never planned on being with my company as long as I have. It is a position I took on to gain more experience and hoping that working full-time would help attract other positions. Before you start the “well look for a new job” comments, I have…unfortunately finding a fan development or event planner position in sports isn’t like applying for a job as a bank teller. Sports is one of the hardest industries I break into and although I have the experience and the degree, the opportunities just are not there. Lately I have been going to work, and going through the motions of the day and that is not what I want for my daily life. I want to wake up every morning and look forward to going to work, like I did when I worked for the Florida Panthers and the Tampa Bay Storm.
I know some of it has to do with my personal life. Moving on…
I know it doesn’t have to do with my friends. I am friends with some of the greatest people you could ever hope to meet. Too many of them live far away, but I know if I need any of them, they are just a phone call, away and if I need them to be by my side they will be there for me in a heartbeat. Some of them I have known almost my whole life, some I have only known for a few months, but I cherish each one of the personal relationships I have.
All I know is I need a change. Maybe more than just changing jobs. Maybe I should move somewhere else. I love living in the NYC area and all that it has to offer. I love living so close to some of my family. But maybe NYC is not offering me the right things. I just don’t know where I would move to.
I need to get out of this funk. I wish I knew how to get out of it but what I do know it needs to happen sooner rather than later.